Nothing like hanging with the family and announce a major challenge to them. They could be your best and worst supporters. Oh, the bets were on and placed. I just gotta focus on eyes on the prize.
FB let me know I had one day (Thanks - really? Wow...and you're pushing it with the slew of texts and photos this morning of alcohol not to mention leaving the bottle of gin on my bed while I slept!)
JB gave me 2 weeks
JN says 3 days
It's not like I hit rock bottom to do this. Heck, coming into the weekend I didn't know I was going to be having my last drinks. Much less get tasered. Twice. Yeah - I did say tasered and check the facebook for a taste - fun times in the V I tell you!
*flashback* There was a time when residual feelings of letting go of an ex made me challenge myself to see how much longer I can be vegan. I kept it up for a couple of months and even through the Holidaysas a free-gan...I only faltered because I was buzzed at Wish and my guyfriends were going to Big Nate's bbq...and soul food is my weakness. I felt like it just wasn't me and although the health benefits were there...I'm too much of a foodie to let go of "intense flavor parties" in my mouth and it was cathartic for me to have that closure and ween off to a point where I felt okay with doing so.
Which brings me to 30-day sobriety challenge...I'm also weening off smoking so I'm trying not to buy a pack but there are times when I do want to restore balance (not cope). Thank the stars above for allowing cigarettes in the challenge. I can totally imagine being good for 3 days and then the craziness gets at me and waking up with scratches on my neck. It's not that I'm letting go of a specific someone or emotional crutches - more so I'm improving on me and being more on top of my game. I'm not going to stop drinking all together but I really need to simmer down a bit and focus on the better life in front of me with surviving school, developing my relationships with others and myself and being more financially free versus strained.
There was an article about a magazine editor who did a 10 day sobriety challenge...I need to find me that. I think the next couple days will be okay...and then Thursday will hit me and I'll be a crazied fiend.
Today is Leeeeeeeeeeeerooooooooy Jenkins and Monday Night Football - Game on bitches coz the Broncos are going down!
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